There is so much I want to do in this lifetime, but I don’t know where to start. I hope to travel abroad in a year’s time to either South Korea or China. I want to obtain a business degree after I finish my diploma. Maybe there is to many ‘I want’ in this picture that I want to make into reality. Maybe I’m not trying hard enough or working hard enough to obtain my dreams.
In three days I am supposed to be standing on a stand, in front of 1000 or more people getting my diploma. But because I didn’t work or try hard enough I am one class short and it is not being offered for another year. I am so frustrated and disappointed in my self; I have become an emotional wreck. I mean I’m to a point where I stand in front of a mirror and want to grab my blanket and cover the reflection of a failure.
Not to many people believed in me when I started out my two-year diploma. There were many people that thought it was a joke or I would fail. No I’m starting to believe them even though I have accomplished more than I had originally though. I am not sure on what to do, maybe I’m meant for failure.